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 When did I start having these "deep" thoughts. They're not helpful. I've not been truly happy since primary school. I have had happy moments. But not lasting happiness. 
 
-I should be using philosphizet this as a way to find new perspectives (which I might agree with. I should be more critical), rather a 
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+I should be using philosphize this as a way to find new perspectives (which I might agree with. I should be more critical), rather than a phrase book for my life. 
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+OoOhHh I need to be *eNlIgHtEnEd*. How can I expect myself to have achieved enlightenment by 19. Maybe I am on a track to becomeing a "true individual". 
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+Or maybe I'm just overthinking. 
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+Fear again. I'm afraid of overthinking. 
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+Such a pussy. 
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+Jesus. Im afraid of being not afraid. I think that If i'm more confident and start to "be myself", people will realise how stupid, boring, and digusting I really am. 
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+Was I sexually assaulted by that bitch at soccer practice in primary? (She took me behind the storage container, asked me for a kiss, I said no, she said close your eyes, promise I wont kiss you. Then I closed my eyes, and she kissed me) Sounds fucking stupid right? Am I just looking for something to blame my social anxiety on? I wonder how people who were more seriously abused must feel? 
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+In intermediate school (middle school in america I think), I-
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+-did bad things. (future self you know what I did)
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+I'm not sure if I really understood what I was doing. And I dont know how/if it still affects me. Maybe Its why I
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+𝄞 I need theerapee 𝄞 (sing song voice)
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