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@ -123,4 +123,26 @@ Reddit is bad for me.
Maybe it can be good. If I follow the right subs. But then I'll still be exposed to the general culture of reddit (I dont even know what I mean the the general culture of reddit). How has reddit benefitted me in a substantial way? - It hasn't. If it had I don't think it would be this hard think of something. Introduced me to OE (is that really a good thing?). Lots of help with calisthenics and mobility. Cool art. Interesting articles about futurology. Although I could have got all those three things just as easily from other places. Whatever, I didn't really miss it that much when I deleted it for a week or two.
Same with instagram. It's hard not to feel inadequate. Because I compare myself to others. And judge them, and then project my judgemental nature onto other people and become scared that they'll judge me. Maybe I'm judgemen- . Am I actually judgemental? Yeah, sometimes I look at someone wearing clothes that don't fit my sujective standard of "coolness", and say in my head "why would you wear those stupid, tight jeans". But usually I catch myself, and realise that i'm being judgemental and that they can wear whatever the fuck they want and why should I care. Hmmm on second thought who know how many times i've subconciously judged people, and discr
Same with instagram. It's hard not to feel inadequate. Because I compare myself to others. And judge them, and then project my judgemental nature onto other people and become scared that they'll judge me. Maybe I'm judgemen- . Am I actually judgemental? Yeah, sometimes I look at someone wearing clothes that don't fit my sujective standard of "coolness", and say in my head "why would you wear those stupid, tight jeans". But usually I catch myself, and realise that i'm being judgemental and that they can wear whatever the fuck they want and why should I care. Hmmm on second thought who knows how many times i've subconciously judged people, and discriminated against them because of it? Maybe I'm not so tolerant after all.
Maybe I need to "trust my insticts". But how do I know what fucking "instincts" are right, and which are wrong. What if all pedo's trusted their instincts (there must be a lot of people who fantansise but wont act). Yes I know its pretty clear that those intincts are wrong. But not all insticts are so clear cut.
Be yourself, but dont be x,y,z
What if myself is x,y,z
Then dont be myself dumbass.
Be yourself, and dont be a dickhead.
very Scary
Need to have faith that I'm not a dickhead. Need to take a leap of faith into my self-religion.
I wonder how many other people are like this?
All this thinking hasn't inspired or motivated me one bit. Is it because I keep doubting myself. I ~~maybe~~ shouldn't expect an intropsective thinking session to motivate me. I shouldn't expect to be motivated. I (fuck this) just need to blindly do whatever I think is best in the moment, and trust my judgement, and be confident in my ability to succeed. And not think to hard about it.
I ~~think~~ it is nessesary (to learn how to spell that word) to stop and consider the general direction of my life. I.e., set goals and work towards them